~~My journey of life 我の心路旅程~~

Saturday, October 15, 2016

无题

时隔大约八个月吧.. 我又回来这个地方逗留了.. 感觉好像差点了忘记自己还有这么一个空间.. 这部落感觉就像被遗弃的小孩..

写了一个小时..

写了又删写了又删..

这样重重复复了不懂几遍..

到最后决定只写了这样一句..

原来要开心很难

- 毕 -

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

This is one of the most reluctant decision that I made in my life so far. After 2 years and 9 months, I decided its time for me to move on and advance in my career. Yes, as mentioned in the previous post, I am finally leaving from Berjaya Group Internal Audit Department.

It is kind of hard to describe my feeling right now. I knew I would have to make progress and advance in my career, but the people here are really made me reluctant to leave the department for we are just like one big family who works together. We might had joy and sour time together, but I am really blessed to have you all as colleagues during my time in the department. For me leaving from the department is really a tough decision to come by.

I knew I am gonna to miss you all.. for all the laughing and cursing moments we had together..

~ vincent90

Monday, January 4, 2016

Wallet

Warning:

Emo post up ahead and this is a ranting post.

Lots of people kept asking me why I did not change my wallet even though it looks really broken and with those wear and tear, nobody would want to pick it up even though found on the street (well, literately..)

Yes. I have been using it for like 5 years but I still reluctant to change it even though it looks really sad. Is it because I believed in FengShui that this wallet can bring me great fortune, you might ask. Nope although this wallet has been good to me for all these while but that is not the reason I reluctant to replace it and believe me a broken wallet would not bring wealth or fortune to you in FengShui but it might have negative impact on you. Well, it is all because it was a gift from someone.

I always wished to get a new one as a gift, especially a wallet can said to be the closet accessory you would have as it follows you to everywhere you go. That is the reason why I don't.

But one year has gone, second years and now coming to the fourth year. Well, the wish has not been granted, as you can tell from the beginning of the post.

Today, as the beginning of a brand new year of 2016. I decided not to wait anymore longer. I am now, in-charge for my own feeling again starting today. I wish.

you have been serving me well, but it is the time we took apart

What needs to be ended, have to be.

~ vincent90

Friday, January 1, 2016

Bye 2015, Hi 2016

So finally 2015 has comes to an end.. what will happen in 2016?

Finally 2015 is over and we are now in 2016.. Wow time flies without us noticing.

Let's recall any significant event happened around me this year... lets see..

Traveled to Sri Lanka for the first time of my life, learned some Sinhala (Sinhalese language) and also their culture.
Proud to be one of the member of EPIC Homes builders to build a house for the Orang Asli family! the best achievement in helping the community in my life so far! Hopefully more to come ~~next~~ this year!
Joined Bersih rally for the first time in my life! felt great Bersih 4 ended peacefully.. and proud for all the Malaysian who stood up, gather hand-in-hand to say no to corruption, power abusing and etc. Even though the rally doesn't bring much effect on the current situation, at least deep in my heart I knew we Malaysian will still stand still and united against corruption.
Traveled to HangZhou (杭州) and YangZhou (扬州) for the first time. Seen the truly beautiful scenery of JiangNan (江南) and HangZhou Westlake (杭州西湖). Tried authentic YangZhou Fried Rice (扬州炒饭), well in my opinion it's quite similar with what we had in Malaysia..
Attended lots of friends' wedding, but it's the first time I became "JiMui" ("Sister" for the bride) for one my friend who always like a Sister to me during my Uni time. Haha.

Well that's all I guess. Overall it's not a good year as I wished to be but I am gladful for what I have. Moving forward to 2016, no new year resolution will be listed as I am just gonna repeat it again and again each year (how sad), but here are some of the things I expected to get it done:-

Tender from my current job on the next Monday as I'm starting my new job starting the following week. Well this simply mean I need to forgo my promotion to Assistant Manager in Berjaya Group, but the new offer is just simply irresistible for me. So wish me good luck for a new environment.
Own a place which I would call home in KL.Finally started to get my first property. Well hope everything go smooth. Wish me luck on this too. Hehe..

These are the things which I can think of now, of course there are plenty more plans but these two would be my priority as at now. Others are not that significant and the outlook for coming year is not so optimistic, so should take it step-by-step. As I always said, "Hope for the best, plan for the worst!"

Lastly.. 2016, please be good to me! =P

~ v1nc3nt90

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

11.11.2015

Have you ever heard of "The Secret", a book Rhonda Byrne? I have read the book before but too bad I am not one of the believer. However, what happened yesterday really turned me off and make me think of it, The Law of Attraction.

It begins with my negative mood these days. As you know from my previous posts, recently are just not the days for me as seems like all the things are not going the way I planned. It was a public holiday yesterday (10.11.2015, Deepavali or Diwali) and I am bored. Deciding not to stay in the room for whole day, I get myself up, dressed up and decided to go for lunch outside and may be catch a movie.

And so, everything's ready and I drive out. The sky getting dark and it seems to be raining soon. "Luckily I was driving." I though to myself and when I get to the mall, guess what happened. The stupid boom gate at the mall entrance did not work! The car in front of me was stuck for like 10 minutes before the guard came and ask us to reverse our cars and use another entrance. What a great turn off.

And so again, I reversed my car and it started to rain. Due to the frustration, I decided to head to McDonald's drive thru to settle my lunch and crouch potato for the rest of the day and this is how my boring holiday ended. What a bad luck!

I really found myself in depression. Lots of things are going opposite of the way I wish it to be. Yes, sometime its my own principle that holding me back from trying to do something which against it, but I am too familiar with this feeling. Its not good at all.

May be I shall came out from living in the past. Accept whatever that has became a truth and moved on.

And here it end of my grumpy posts. At least. I hope.

~v1nc3nt90

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Optimistic vs Reality

Yeap, I knew I hope this would be a positive post from my previous posting, but well.. sorry! it seems to me that this will be another grumpy, negative post, hopefully it will be ended after tonight.

I wished for a change. I really really did and I have put in much efforts in it. Notwithstanding that efforts have been put in, but the result is simply not just as what I expected.

I tried to be optimistic, but each and every time the reality just turn me into pessimistic. That feeling sucks right?

At least I tried and there is nothing to lose? I though to myself. Yet, the result still matters to me. I noticed that I tend to isolate myself during this period in order to spread the negative feeling around.

It is harder than I though and somehow I think I failed that. Even people around me senses that something is not right in me. May be I was never a good pretender as I though. I just wrote whatever I felt on my face although I am trying hard to hide the disappointment.