逃避

有时候在想…至今对有些事情还是会选择性的逃避…

是不是意味这还没过去呢？

一个字… 烦！

Stay

Finally decided to change my bloggie's embedded background music.. Stay by Rihanna featuring Mikky Ekko.. A really nice song that i kept repeating recently..

Moods always decides what song to listen huh? haha.. true enough..

Countdown-ing for my days in Crowe Horwath and Melaka.. definately I wouldn't "stay" here anymore.. 

But i really hope that you stay.. as if this is the reason I hold on..

=)

最近的你好吗?

很久很久没来这里了… 也忘了是多久… 总之是很久就对了… 哈哈…

又是新的一年了！不管是阳历新年还是刚刚过得的农历新年… 都是新的一年… 很多人包括我自己都常说新年新生活… 但仔细想想… 讽刺点说… 大多数时候我们还是过着一样平凡的日子… 哈哈…

无论如何今年我迎来的改变会比较大一点…新的一年… 最大的改变莫过于我讲了差不多一年… 终于真正的辞职了… 很多人都问我… 现在这份工不好吗？ 薪水不错… 前途也不错… 为什么要换嘞？

无可否认… 我在Horwath确实是爬得快…但当机会来时我可不会眼巴巴的看它溜掉… 虽然面对新的工作环境怎么都没有在熟的地方来的容易… 但没尝试… 有怎么知道不适合呢？ 毕竟还年轻… 怕什么… 再说Berjaya Group 的 offer 不是时常有的… 哈哈…

再来就是小白啦… 今年年头终于拿到我的小白了！虽然要养小白不简单… 但有负担人才会长大… 考虑的东西也会比较多… 对钱财的规划要更仔细… 好事来的… 哈哈…

和小白say "Hi!"

接下来嘛… 就是遇到到了不同的人和事物… 让我发现… 有大学生涯真好！ 再来就是负担… 我很幸运… 不需要太早面对生活… 能够有大学生涯帮我打下一个基础… 也间接的让我学会承受压力…

接下来的改变就是终于要离开马六甲了… 原以为我不会像那时读完书离开金宝那样地依依不舍… 毕竟我一直都认为马六甲没有我值得留恋的东西… 和那时在金宝不一样… 我一直都想离开这里… 但或许是你的出现让我有少少的不舍… 不舍… 是因为我觉得可以有发展的空间… 撇除一些因素… 我相信是可以很好的… 不舍… 也是因为我认为就这样没继续下去有些可惜… 但我已经不相信距离了… 所以维持现状… 或许会比较好一点点…

你也让我了解… 原来自由是人家给的… 难怪会有一句永远都不会过时的名言“人在江湖，身不由己”… 想做自己喜欢的事… 想去自己喜欢的地方… 不是没个人都可以做到的… 因为要顾虑的因素实在太多了… 虽然不喜欢… 但也没办法… 任性… 应该不会出现在你的字典里…

想了解你多一点… 但却不敢往前… 毕竟知道在马六甲的时间不多了… 经过那件事后… 我了解到工作和前途怎么样都比爱情来的可靠… 若两者皆能是最好不过了… 但往往都不能… 所以要知道怎么样去选其一…

得空时会想想… 最近的你好吗？ 是不是该让自己的心取代大脑… 让自己任性那么一次？

～～翃政

16.01.2013

Arh.. time flies..

it has been the first year..

i nearly forgotten about this date..

how sad..

Hello, 2013

Today is the last day for the year 2012.. meaning to say after today it would be a whole new year!

before that.. wondering where have i gone for this month? haha.. yeap i was like disappear for almost one whole month.. no update, no new post, no reading and comment.. ya.. i has been a busy month for me.. outstation, work and travelling.. these has been occupied my time for 1 whole month.. hehe.. but most of the time i was just lazy to on..

so back to the topic.. looking back to this year.. what do you think about this year? as for me.. it was just a so so year for me.. sometimes.. i do really wonder can we achieve both in career and relationship.. as for me.. the career this year was good.. but relationship was just bad..

I wish I was strong enough to lift not one but both of us.. but it seems like just doesn't work.. never mind.. what happened were histories.. learned from past.. the word history made up of "his" and story".. so it is his story now.. someday.. i will make my story.. and it would not become history again.. hehe..

2013.. i hope you will be good to me.. although i still need to work on 1 January.. haha.. working in the first day of the year.. is it indicate that this would be a busy working year for me? haha.. i hope not..

it is time to say good bye to 2012 and hello 2013! please be good to me.. haha.. let me accomplished all my wish list for the year! haha..

arh.. should i ask her out for new year count down? hmm.. let see how destiny arrange for me.. haha..

~ vincent

p.s. mixpod has closed their server due to resource limitation.. hmm.. any other embed music player to introduce to me? hehe..

How fast do you walk?

It is the second public holiday within a week.. and guess what.. the public holidays fall on Tuesday and Thursday.. which simply means that my working days on this week was on Monday, Wednesday and Friday.. and it sucks! make me totally no mood to work on Monday and Wednesday.. regret for not taking leave.. but think about it.. i have no place to go as i don't wanna waste my holiday stay at home.. =/ initially planned for Sarawak trip last time.. but no respond from my friends.. so forget about it..

Hmm.. so what i did to spend my day? hehe.. i did go for some shopping.. went to Dataran Pahlawan and Hatten Square this afternoon.. was looking for some shorts since it has been a while since the last time i bought new shorts.. yes i do shop alone sometimes.. to be honest.. i don't really like to shop in a gang.. as sometimes the more people you go with.. the more opinion/disagreement you will received.. Thou it is good to have someone to give opinion sometimes..

As for me.. sometimes i tend not buying the one i liked the most because of disagreement from the gang.. but i do appreciate for opinion given but not too much voices.. that's why i still prefer to shop alone or in pair.. it is good to have someone to accompany you and give opinion when you need it thou..

So back to the topic.. today when i was walking around hunting for my shorts and shirt.. i noticed something change in myself.. i tend to walk slower and observe things that i never noticed during the past.. it remind me during the past my ex always complained that i walked too fast and she has a hard time to catch up with my pace.. haha.. it is because for most of the time when i go for shopping or when be in the mall we have a clear destination/shop to go with.. so i will just heading straight to the shop or destination without keeping an eyes on what i have passed by.. easy and simple.. like going straight to Padini for shirt without knowing what is the shop besides Padini.. going for Cinema without knowing what are the shops around the Cinema and so on..

may be it is all about my lifestyle.. we are living in a life that everything is in a fast pace.. everything we do, everything we want.. we hope it will be ASAP.. as soon as possible.. like when you are queuing up to make order/payment.. or the even when you are waiting for the foods to serve..and of course.. work allocated to you by the boss..always want to have thing to be done ASAP.. that makes me tend to have quicker pace in everything i did.. i walked in a fast pace.. i drive fast.. i eat fast.. i read fast.. i think everything i do i done it fast except for waking up from my bed.. i think that is the only thing i reluctant to do it fast.. haha..

so i told myself to have a try.. try to observe the surrounding with a slower pace.. as today will be a free day for me.. and yeap.. it have been a different feel.. something that we seldom or didn't notice normally.. but it is still impossible for me to do that all the time as my career is consider a fast pace career with need a faster step up ahead.. minute count! so may be i can only enjoy like that during Holiday or when i retire.. hmm.. but when it is not rushing i will try to walk slower.. observe and enjoy the surrounding, change or any particular thing that doesn't catch your attention but it is interesting..

do you remember how many steps it took to reach first floor in your house.. i guess you don't.. haha.. even myself also doesn't know..

so tell me.. how fast do you walk? =]

p.s. so sad that i feel like i am getting older because i have this though during this afternoon shopping.. haha.. but keep on remind myself i am only 22 this year.. not old not old.. 

The Truth That You Leave..

今天无意之间想起了这首歌..
一首几年前曾经陪伴过我一段时间的歌..
这首歌带给人一种悲伤的感觉..
就好像这首歌的题目你离开的事实..

从旋律里不难听出作者的心意..

歌曲的前端感觉像是在怀念着..
怀念过去种种的记忆..
回忆过去两个人的点点滴滴..
就好像地球上的两个人..
从不相识的陌生人..
在一些机缘巧合下..
从互相不认识开始..
到后来的相识..

这时候是淡淡的颜色

中段虽然是重复着前端的旋律..
但音调被调高了..
就好像到相识后所发生的点点滴滴..
经历.. 到后来的相恋..
那天.. 那年.. 
你我一起经历的记忆..
有平淡的.. 也有刻骨铭心的..
有开心的.. 也有一起哭过的..
那些美好的画面..

这段是整首歌的Climax..
也是最开心的节奏..

到后段时开始平静下来..
给人一种幸福开始逝去感觉..
就好像明白了你离开的这个事实..
而且也开始接受了这个事实..
但还是希望你过得更幸福..

当一切都逝去了.. 
剩下来的也只是回忆..
尾端给人就是这种淡淡的忧伤..

整体而言呢.. 这首歌带给我的是怀念的感觉..
怀念过去的美好..
但现实还是得面对的..
就有如这首歌的曲目
你离开的事实..

不知道..
此时听着这首歌的你..
听到了那个章节..
心里..
又会否.. 勾起了那些回忆呢?

要学会接受.. 有些回忆.. 只能保留.. 因为已经不会从来..

顺道一提..

这首歌是台湾一位笔名为Pianoboy的人所弹奏的..

希望你也会喜欢.. =)