31 December...

today is da last day of 2007 lo... and of coz a happy new year from me to all my frens... bt think bout it... is it reli happy new year? haha... for others may be it will be a very happy day and moment... bt for me... it was quite terrible... first time im going to celebrate new year alone... wat a lonely way to celebrate new year eve... dis December was reli a terrible december... everything seem like going wrong, wrong and wrong... first i have lose sumone from my side... then im out from a branch of frens becoz of sumthing i did... sigh... like things will never gt rite in tis december... reli reli hope all these nightmare will end and a new start is waiting for me in the new year... i reli hope so... reli tired from all these stuff...

anywhere... stil wishing u all happy new year...

boring sunday...

as usual... sunday was the longest day of every week for me... wake up at 6 am today... dunno y... insomnia these few days... den da bao my breakfast at ghany... ate my breakfast... playing sum childish and silly games... watch movies... and bla bla bla... finally 2pm d... went out again for lunch... spend RM 8 on lunch... haha... coz order an abc for rm2.50... quite expansive bt nice... so it worth. den going for a little shopping after tat... bought a new game... need for speed prostreet... bought a new keyboard for my laptop... onot da keyboard on my laptop sure will spoil coz keep playing games... spending a lot lot others money for rubbish... haha...

stil lost my direction... alto i found it a bit way back to my life... bt sigh... for most of the part im stil lost... quite empty in my heart... my mind...from full of joy it become empty... yeap... at least last time i have a person to sharing joys, sadness and willing to listen to my hopes and dreams... bt no more for nw... sigh... bt sumthing have passed should let go of it... shouldnt think so much... haha... dunno y... i changed a lot... last time i wasnt like tis... i can put down feeling toward sumone very fast and soon... nt even one week i can forget d lo... bt y tis time even one month passed already i stil cant completly let go of it? sigh... ppl become more matured as time passed bt i become more immature in tis kind of stuff... haha... funny rite? may be sumday i will find my answer... hope so la...

last... today is 30 december d wor... means two more days to 2008... time passed reli fast... juz a blink of eyes nw 2007 stil left 2 days only... haiz... without noticed... i have been in UTAR for more than half a year d... haha half a year man... bt it juz like a week for me... alto too much things happend during tis half year... bt i stil feel it passed very fast... if can let me choose... i wan to go back to august or september again... hehe... to correct sumthing i did wrong... sigh... bt we all noe time will never return...

a early greeting from me... happy new year... to all my frens...

~~v1nc3nt90

My wonder... My ponder...

long time din update my blog d... haha... after the lame shit and ultra hard web page design test i should relax a while... so decided to write this blog... hehe...

haiz... recently a lot of things happend... and sum of those things changed my mind... ya... my way of thinking... my feeling and all... well it was my fren... my fren has juz broke up wit him gal fren... emm... shouldnt be juz... bt long time ago d... juz he totally giving up da gal yesterday... well... care to listen a story? haha

they was once a happy couple... a couple that let other ppl envy at them... da boy (my fren) was love da gal so much... and seriously... he was reli tot that they can last forever... he reli did... bt that nite... his galfren give him a shock... she requested to break... of coz... he refuse to accept it alto he knew there are sum problems between them d... da boy decided to let her break for a while... to cool down and consider for sum times... so... of coz... like others, da boy keep on trying to save this relationship... he tried very very hard and put on a lot of efforts to save this relationship... alto she keep saying dun put hopes and all... da boy belif wat he did can touch the gal... that is y he keep on putting efforts and all to save this relationship...

bt last nite... during the Christmas nite... he give up... totally give up d after he had a talk with her... only after that he knew tat da gal was nt happy with the relationship very long d... since they started da gal oso nt happy d... so in the end... da gal decided to request break... ok... and da words that hurt the boy most is when she said:" i have totally no feeling at u d"... my fren's heart totally broken... he cant accept that... may be u will say he was immature... and in fact... he is... he is quite immature... bt he reli love her! bt at the end... hw da gal treat him? she reli reli hurt da boy... and da poor boy... finally accept tat and totally give up her d... that is da christmas nite for da boy... a "wonderful" christmas nite he have... i think he will remember tis christmas nite forever gua...

hmm... for me... love sumbody who didnt love u isnt da worst part... da worst is love sumbody who have hurt u badly... it will never have a nice endng... juz as my fren... pity him... he reli reli did a lot of things for da gal and hope that she will un bt in da end she dun even appreciate bt scold him... sigh... bt gud thing is he had already put down the love to her... he has given up and i belif that is gud for him... coz da gal also wouldnt appreciated wat he did... so wat for he doing all those things again? she will juz tot him as a fool and stupid... and lastly... wat past has passed... there are no point to talk bout it again d... it wun change anything... da boy finally can be himself back... can be da real of him... wun worry bout da gal again... wun think of wat is gud for her and such... alto thinking like this is a bit selfish... bt he should have rather den putting empty hope on her... i used to belif we will nid to change or sacrifice sumthing to keep da relationship... bt nw my mind changed... nw for me, i think being urself is da most essential of ur life... dun try to change urself for anyone... it doesnt worth... and is love reli artificial? i wonder... and ponder...

Pretender...

ppl do change as time goes on... and of coz... me too... i used to hate pretender or faker... since i was small i dun like pretender at all... they wun be my frens but only enemy... gut sigh... nw i changed... a very very big changing... becoz... im one of those pretenders d... sarcastic rite?

sum decision was hard to make, sum words is hard to say... bt i dun care anymore d... for sum of da reason i dun care d...alto it is nt my will bt i stil did it... and i think it was da best way alto i dun like it... yes... and im suffering for wat i have done... bt i didnt regret that i have did it... whenever there is a pretender, a victim will occur oso... in my case... it happend oso... i did hurt sumbody... bt i have no other choise beside that... i reli reli dun wish to do tat... bt if u let me choose again... i will choose da same reason... yes... definately... haha... im doing things tat totally opposite wit my will... but for da person... i nid to pretend in tat way... sorry...

for all the ppl who reading tis... sum decision are hard to make... bt... rmb... be urself... only tat ur life is better... no matter wat decision is it... juz be urself... dun pretend in other ways... rmb honesty is the best policy...

ok la... nid to slp d... tmr muz travel to ipoh summore... no.. should be today coz nw oso 4am d... haha...

*hope tat sumday u will noe y i did tis to u... i reli dun wan to mean like tat...

~v1nc3nt90

Exhausted...

Recently there r a lot lot of things in my mind. Assignments and some personal problems. tis was a reli reli tough week for me... at least i think it is... first... we staying up whole da nite juz to finish the web page design assignment. great last minute work again... haha... we have started at 9 sumthing on thursday nite and did until friday 7 sumthing only done... c hw brillent are us... luckily, every group members are trying their best to make the best of we can alto we stayed up whole the nite... thanx to u all we manage to finish da whole assignment from zero in around 10 hours... thanx to u all... alto davis, jackson and sooi yan take a nap during we doing da page... haha... u all have contributed great efforts in this assignment... thanx to u all.. haha... we having a break at 4 sumthing n go for our supper (or breakfast???) at ghany... omg... da roti was so nice at 4 a.m... better dan usual one... haha... Finally we finished our assignment at 7 sumthing... bt i ponteng miss ching lecture to do sum of the other stuff such as introduction and concludsion. thanx to davis in tis part... u give a big hand in it... arrived at the photostat shop at 1 sumthing... wait until 2 sumthing only i finished printing... arrived at miss chai tutorial at 2:40 bt she din scold oso coz she noe we bz for assignment... and she allowed me to sign attendance tim alto i juz attended her class for 20 minute... nice lecturer... hehe... after that when i wanna burn my assignment into an empty cd... only i realised i left my pendrive at the photostat shop... omg muz go all the way b da shop den come b uni again to burn coz my laptop was there. finnaly sumbit my whole assignment at 4 sumthing then go for a talk held by joey yap bout faces or we call 面相 in chinese... learned quite a lot of things from him... he was quite funny in a way... bt too bad cant attend his next talk on next saturday coz going b hometown... feel soooo "gud" coz havrnt eat anything since 4am sumthing in ghany till nw... nw 7pm sumthing bt i still havent eat anything wor... dun feel hungry oso... haha... din sleepy oso alto din slp for about 1 and da half day d... may be all my sense malfunction d... haha...

This week was reli a terrible week for me... beside all those shit assignments and test, my personal problems are sumthing tat make my life worse. I dun even noe wat am i doing or may be i should ask myself... should i did that... After a long long thinking, i decided i should. sum decisions were very very hard to make.. i have my own inner conflicts... haha should i apply da economic opportunity cost on it onot? bt i belif... i muz do it for sum of the reason... coz tis may be da best way for sumbdy alto i reli dun wan... bt as the thing is in this situation d... i belif i dun have much choices d... alto i reli dun wanna do it, bt everything was too late d... wat i have done it is done... da fact wouldnt be changing... i dun wanna wish to let her noe y i did so... bt i belif it is da best way... bt hosnestly... i wasnt the best for me... or i can said it was da worst thing for me... bt i muz do it... in time... i hope i will recover soon la... Vincent will never fall... haha... or at least... i hope i can... gud luck to myself... hehe...

~v1nc3nt90

是与非...

haiz...到底我那样做是不是最好的解决方法?我自己都不知道该不该那样做... 虽然伤害是在所难免的...可是我觉得这样做对大家来讲是最了断的... 与其各自都辛苦...不如就让我来做个了断...酱一来我们都可以得到时间来冷静自己... 要我酱做虽然是很心痛... 很辛苦...可是长痛不如短痛...不如就这样彻底的让她离开...希望你能尽快恢复...我真的很心痛...可是我不得不这样做...因为在这段时间中...我们还是保持一段距离比较好... 对不起... 坏人当然是比较容易做...但有谁能明白我心里的感受?

在这段时间中... 我终于学到了由爱生恨的道理了... 也让我迷失了自己...我真的已经好累好累...好想放下一切就这样什么都不用理...可是现实是残酷的...你越想休息...它偏偏让你没的如愿以偿...我好想睡觉喔..好想躺下来的时候是完全没烦恼的...脑子里什么都不用烦...那该有多好?

最后...真心的祝福你...开心...快乐...希望你能找到你想要走的路...找回你自己...做回你自己...酱才是对的起你自己...坚持自己的决定...能看到你开心...当然我也会开心的... 我真诚的向你道歉... 希望你会了解我的用意...如果你真的不会原谅我...我也不会怪你的...毕竟...这是我自己选的...是我的选择... 希望有天你会明白...

写给一个不会看华文的人...也是一个曾经和我分享过喜怒哀乐的人...祝福你快乐...

~伤心和失落的坏人...

8/8/2007 vs 6/12/2007

8/8/2007 和 6/12/2007 是两个完全不同的日子... 无论是在心情上, 感觉, 想法, 意义都完完全全不一样... 8/8 可以说是我最开心的一天...而6/12却让我完全跌进了谷底...在这121天里许许多多的事情发生...有甜的酸的苦的...许多甜美的回忆...和 许多心酸的故事...难道一样东西真的不能长久吗?任何东西都有它光亮的一面和它黑暗的一面...只要能带过它黑暗的一面, 光亮就在那转角而已...难道你就这样放弃了吗?就这样这能成为回忆了... 算了...如果你觉得没必要的话...我也没什么好说的了...只想让你明白...我真的受伤了...现在的我也已经不是以前的我了... TA7 也已经失去了他们那喜欢笑嘻嘻, 爱开玩笑和神经失常的Boss了...真的真的需要一段好长的时间来养伤...真的好痛...好累...但如果你觉得这样对双方都好...我也不会留着你 的...至少...我知道你是开心的...酱就够了...我满足了...

ooh... me arh???

Hehe... damn damn long time din update my blog d... very lazy these few days coz a lot of things to do... hmm... ok la... den nw i write about bit bit things happend recently la... haha

ok... lets c... 1st of all damn a lot of assignment!!!!! walao ei, juz finished one another will come... ish... when can i finish all assignment leh... T.T after da progress report for web page design, come da sociology presentation... den next week have to submit marketing assisgnment tim... haiz... den buzy la these few weeks... beside assignment, tests r oso making troubles to me... marketing, web page design, management, writing for business, writing for mass com, yor... alot lot test come one by one... making me so dizzy @.@ on week 9, which is next week will have presentation for writing for mass com tim... ish... tis week will rushing for preparing two assignment... @@! summore week 10 gt sociology test and web page design lab test... omg...

missing all those days in secondary school... hehe... last time was so enjoy and easy... much much easy dan now... now a lot lot thing to do... we have to finish 6 subject in 14 weeks!!!! can u imaging hw rush was it??? last time secondary school only gt 2 time test a year... nw gt 3 times tim... and we have to study 16 subjects in 1 year if compared with last time 11 subjects in two year! ish... anywhere we muz fit ourself well la... since nw we r in university level d... haha... no more secondary life... and i found out a lot lot of changes in myself after attending da university... hehe... keep da study next time la...

ok wat's next? ooh ya... my club finally form up d... haha... photography club in UTAR!!! oh yeah... after recruitment we only manage to gt 30+ members onli... bt nvm la... will try our best to gt more more and more... haha... and after that we will have a general meeting to elect da permanent committee members and finally... our club will be offically form up... hehe... wandering wat post will i gt after da general meeting... hehe... and another thing... i been seleted for course rep for stream A!!! as the represent of all class rep in stream A... hehe... actually i dunno bout my duty and responsible of being a course rep bt i will accapt it as a new challenge!!! haha...

ok la... since i oso dunno wat to write d... den i think this should be all for today la... im so tired nw coz slping late n wake up early today... making me bringing panda eyes to uni... ish... ok la... i wan zzz d... buh bye... :p haha...

想想看...

1. 一只风筝一辈 子, 只会为一根线冒险... 因为一旦线断了... 风筝将会失去依靠... 生活也变的了没目标... 虽然得到了自由... 但却只能孤身一个人... 这样, 它会开心吗?

2. 问世间情为何物?

佛曰: 废物..!!

3. 在爱的世界里没有谁对不起谁, 只有谁不懂得珍惜谁...!

4. 叶子的离开, 是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留呢? 然而当叶子离开了树过后... 随风飘泊... 最 后... 风还是会把叶子抛弃... 从此... 就永远的回不到树的身边了...

5. 一个人的时候会孤单吗? 其实一个人的时候并不孤单... 真正孤单的时候是想一个人可是那个人 却不在你身边的时候才是最孤单。



-v1nc3nt-

wat? tag me???

part 1: state the rules. bold the statements that are true to you. italise the statements that you wish are true. leave the fibs alone. then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

part 2: the tag.


i miss somebody right now.

i dont watch tv these days.


i wear glasses or contact lenses.

i love to play video games.

i've tried marijuana.

i have been in a threesome.

i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.

i believe honesty is usually the best policy.

i curse.

i have changed mentally over the last year.

i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

i'm totally smart.

i've broken someone's bones.

i'm paranoid sometimes.

i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

i need money right now.

i love sushi.

i have long hair.

i talk really, really fast.

i have lost money in las vegas.

i have at least one sibling.

i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.

i couldn't survive without caller i.d.

i like the way i look.

i am usually pessimistic.

i have a lot of mood swings.

i have a hidden talent.

i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.

i have a lot of friends.

i have pecked someone of the same sex.

i enjoy talking on the phone.

i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.

i love to shop.

i enjoy window shopping.

i would rather shop than eat.

i'm a pretty good dancer.

i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

i have a cell phone.

i believe in god.

i watch mtv on a daily basis.

i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.

i've rejected someone before.

i want to have children in the future.

i have changed a diaper before.

i've called the cops on a friend before.

i'm not allergicto anything.

i have a lot to learn.

i have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

i am shy around the opposite sex.

i have tried alcohol before.

i have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.

i own the "south park" movie.

i would die for my best friends.

i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.

i have used my sexuality to advance my career.

i love michael jackson, scandals and all.

halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.

i am happy at this moment!

i'm obsessed with guys.

i tie my shoelaces differently from anyone i've ever met.

i am comfortable with who i am right now.

i have more than just my ears pierced.

i walk barefoot wherever i can.

i have jumped off a bridge.

i love sea turtles.

i spend ridiculous money on makeup.

i plan on achieving a major goal/dream.

i'm proficient in a musical instrument.

i worked at mcdonald's restaurant.

i hate office jobs.

i love sci-fi movies.

i think water rules.

i went to college out of state.

i like sausages.

i love kisses.

i fall for the worst people.

i adore bright colours.

i can't live without black eyeliner.

i don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.

i usually like covers better than originals.

i can pick up things with my toes.

i can't whistle.

i can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.

i have ridden/owned a horse before.

i still have every journal i've written in.

i can't stick to a diet.

i talk in my sleep.

i try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.

climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.

i have jazz in my blood.

i wear a toe ring.

i can't stand at least one person that i work with.

i am a caffeine junkie.

i cosplay or know what cosplaying is.

i have been to over 15 conventions.

i will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.

i'm an artist.

i only clean my room when necessary.

i like a person of the same sex.

i love being happy.

i am an adrenaline junkie

part 3: tag people to do the same.

- Lim Beng Chun...

- Jameson Chua

- Ong Gerald

- Teo Zhi Ang

- Pheyven

me....

well... recently there are alot alot things in my mind... and sum of them have changed me into another person... becoz of tat... i change... i used to be a guy with owaz fed up with confident, owaz joy, owaz making jokes n funs around... bt recently sumthing happend and my mind change... i dun think like wat i think be4 d... my mind changed d...

And... i have to pretend like nth in front of my friends... they will c me as da vincent tat they noe... vincent tat owaz talk very loud, jokes around n playful... bt in fact... inside myself... i wasnt tat... i prefer to remain silence nw... prefer to be alone nw... may be i still cant accapt the change of myself... bt i think eventually i will... EVENTUALLY... A word tat i not sure when is it... hope da day will come soon... i hate to pretend... haiz... i wish i can hibernate... then da time will pass very soon... i reli hope... n actually i myself oso cannot accapt my changes bt sadly... i have to... i have to change myself for sumthing tat i dun wanna lose it.......

bt... i have lose myself... =)

~vincent

多事之秋...

Haiz.... 最近真是多事之秋啊... 自信心老是满满的我居然会觉得自己突然间很失败... 真的... 最近真的过的很不如意... 老实说最近感情不是很顺利咯...而且... 当成绩出来时我真的是蛮失望的咯... 哇... 情场都不如意的... 考场也不帮下我... 难道老天真的酱想考我么...

先讲情场吧... 不知道从何时开始... 我们常常为了一些小事而吵架... 有时候真的是一些芝麻绿豆的小事也可以吵架... 虽然每次吵完后隔天就没事了... 可是每次吵架后都会在各自的心中留下小小的裂痕... 别小看这些小裂痕hor... 它可是所有大大的裂痕的起因啊... 到那时候想补救也难了咯... Ok... 我承认... 我是很小气... 而且还很容易吃醋的... 但是我是真的关心你嘛... 老实说有时我很不赞同你的做法...但是我已经尽量去忍耐了... 但是有些东西是我真的忍耐的嘛... 毕竟我也是个人... 我有我自己的感受... 我自己的想法... 我想要的只是你能把我放在你的朋友的前面... 每次因为朋友的关系而和你吵架时... 我的心是真的很痛... 难道真的... 我比不上你的朋友吗? 对... 我知道你是很讲义气... 可是在你心目中感情比不上义气吗?

考场嘛... 其实不是很惨咯... 只是成绩出来时没那么理想... 没有我想象中的好...毕竟我认为最有把握的两个科目应可以拿A的呱... 谁知只拿了个B+... 不过还好啦... 还有两个A咯... 不然真的是要撞墙死了算了... 有时我在想hor... 情场和考场如果能顺顺利利酱不知有多好喔... 嘻嘻... 可是要明白人生不如意事, 十有八九这这具话... 毕竟在现实生活中谁能够一舫风顺呢? 有谁不是经历了许许多多的阻挡而到到成功的? 老实说我很傻的咯... 我相信山穷水尽疑无路,柳暗花明又一村的... 真的... 虽然我知道有点傻... 可是人总要抱着希望吗... 再说... 难道你不是吗?

最后... 要祝福我自己... 还有天底下所有跟我一样傻的人... 哈哈...

trip to teluk intan!!!!

ok... since i cant on9 last week... so i wil make a late entry of my post for last week la... hehe... ok... on last wednesday which is on 10 of october we went to teluk intan after our class which is until 10a.m onliz... hehe...

We start our journey at bout 11 n reached there about at 12pm... well went we r there we keep looking for ju chong fan bt den sadly.... we almost explored all da teluk intan town bt we cant find any ju chong fan there... so sad... at last... we end up our lunch in KFC... hehe....

After that, we going to the famous tourist spot in teluk intan... the leaning tower... or wat we call menara condong in Malay... actually the tower isnt tat special lo... juz u can feel it is leaning a bit as u climb in the tower... bt sadly... we only can go up to the second floor as the above is only for admistration... wonder wat they hide upside... hehe...

After that we going to a park with is beside da river... quite fun there haha... we took quite a number of photo there... haha... n luckily it wasnt tat hot when we playing... hehe... After that we going to having sum ice as our dessert... Finally we managed to end our journey which shopping... which i going back wit empty hand coz dunno wat to buy oso... hehe...

After all... it was a nice journey alto it wasnt a perfect journey coz sumthing i dun like happen... bt overall, it will be a sweet memory... hehe... hmm... i thinking where to go next time d... hehe... any suggestion??? XP

~v1nc3nt

holidays passed d...

ok... after two weeks of holidays... i had come to here again... hehe... in little kampar again d... hehe...
during tis 2 weeks of holiday... im sososososo bored until like wanna go crash da wall d... hehe... so at last i decided to work again lo... work in my aunt's shop... giving a hand there... haha... den so soon... 5 days had passed n i earned a little bit $$... hehe...

on friday im going to melaka... going a place like qi chiong kai in kl... da place was called ji chang jie or wen hua jie... quite a lot of stuffs there... bt den so sad... most of da stall sell gal's stuffs like ring arh, earing, necklace etc... hmm... beside tat was a lot of stall selling food oso... a lot a lot of foods there like hai nan chicken rice, cai tao ke, n a kind of candy tat has disappear in nowadays... kot kot tang... yeah!! i think tis is da only place i can find tis candy... hehe... hmm... i bought i few things there... spend almost 30 bucks there n going home...

den sunday i started my journey b to kampar early in da morning... damn tiring coz have to drive so long way... n its is totally different with the time i drive b johore from kampar coz it is like i din expect hw fun is it as da 1st time i drive... bt anyway... i arrived here safely... n tis is da most important thing... XP...

At last... to all my UTAR frens... happy coming b to UTAR... hope u all enjoy ur second sem here...

My new blog!!!

Dang dang!!!! here come my second blog... hehe... a new blog for me.. XP
For my previous blog, u can visit the following link
http://vincelee1314.spaces.live.com/

ok... since tis is my new blog... hehe... let u noe more bout me le... ok... let's c

i am
~17 tis year
~easy going people lo...
~Always don't noe what to do...
~Always kong mong when doing thing...
~Got a little blur blur de...
~Like to hanging around with friends...
~Music is part of my life...
~Playing computer games... (no computer no life!!!)
~For nw i satisfied with my relationship... and wish to keep it long n 4ever...
~wish to come out to work and have my own business... (bt force to study coz no cert no jobs!!!)
~and finnally... i wish to make everyone around me happy... especially my little gal...
N i don't noe liao.. tat is all i think... haha...

ok le... tis is all for my very 1st post for tis blog... muahaha...