Sunday, January 27, 2008

bye bye kampar...

tomorrow i will going back hometown le... should be today or later la because now also over 12 a.m already... haha... after a long semester... finally i am going back home again... yeah!

will drive for about 4 or 5 hours to reach Johore... hmm... if not mistaken it was about 300+ kilometer... will be damn damn tired after that... i have a bad news... my family was moving into new house currently... so there will be no internet connection in my house!!! imagine my life without internet... and you might be know how efficient and how fast TM( Telekom Malaysia... Internet service provider) do their work... haha...

anywhere... will try to online when i got chance... may be going cyber cafe or what le... haha... ok le... there is all for today... will try to continue writing when i am available to online...

miss you all, my friends...

~~v1nc3nt90

Saturday, January 26, 2008

finally... it is over!!!

after 6 days of exam...
finally it is over!!! haha...
and now... i can enjoy my holiday le...
Oh yeah!!!
now i can have enough sleep already...
lack of sleep these few days...
slept not even 4 hours a day...
@.@
fianlly it is over...
YEAH!!!

p.s. finally it is over remind me a song... beautiful girl by sean kingston... "you'll have me suicidal, suicidal when you say it's over..." Lolz... Happy holidays... friends...

~~v1nc3nt90

come on... last subject already...

oh yeah... finally the exam left the last subject... sociology... ish... actually sociology was one of my weak subject because i didn't pay much attetion during the class... and i don't like this subject... it is like history... sienz...

today web page design is quite ok for me because i can answer most of the question... but... writing for mass communication was totally out from my expectation... zzz... damn damn hard the writing for mass communication as i put most of my time to study web page design... i don't think i can score high mark in this paper... sigh... =.="

after tomorrow our semester final exam will be officially ended... haha... then it was time to go back hometown... haha... quite a long time didn't go back Muar already... miss my bed so much... haha...will be going back to celebrate chinese new year... and we have one whole month holidays... yippee...

but the most important thing now is study... my sociology arh... i don't want resit or repeat this paper... it was so so so horrible... wasting money and time... haha... ok la... should continue my study already... since it was 4 am already... gambateh... vincent... but now i prefer zZZ... lolz...

~~v1nc3nt90

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Title?? no idea what i should put for this post...

ok... i am back here again... haha... without any purpose... just for crapping at here again... my friends ask me... recently is exam week wor... why i still can post up one post about one post per day... haha... actually i also dunno... just feel like blast out everything in my mind here... well... actually it wasn't about time... writing a post will took my about 40 minutes only... and we need break from study also de ma... can't just keep study de ma right? haha...

ok... today after marketing exam i went to Foundation General Office to collect my student bill... hmm... sometime i really wonder is UTAR really a non-profit organization? Exam haven't over yet ask people to collect bill for paying next semester tuition fees... Whatever la... will pay it after i go back my hometown... sigh... tomorrow will facing 2 subject of exam... tiring... imagine 2-4pm den 6-8pm... gosh... can't imagine keep sitting inside the exam hall...

well... quite peace for me these few days... no more arguing and quarrel... since that thing has over... i don't have any quarrel and argument again... haha... good for me... now it seems like blogging is something i can do when i have a lot lot things to share in my mind... last time i got someone to sms with... to chat with... to share story with... that is why i didn't blog often... but now seems like i am blogging everyday... haha... almost everyday i will be crapping here...



My student bill

~~v1nc3nt90

i don't like you...

for some of the reason... i don't like you... since semester 2 was started... i started to dislike you... if you ask me for the reason... i don't think i can answer you as well... We are classmate... and we have to be classmate for 1 more semester... but i will avoid you as well...

till now... i am still avoiding you... where you appeared... i will disappear in there... except in the classroom... because i have no choice... what i can tell you is... stop interrupt in my life... it is mine... not yours... i don't like you because the way you are... you might be famous and popular among our friends but not me... i totally dislike you... and what happened on me recently you saw... you know... and now you happy?

people might think i am petty or mean... but i simply don't care... i just know i can't going well with you because of the things you did... many argument between me and her started because of you... did you know that? if you said i jealous at you... yes i was... but no more... after i found out you have nothing to make me jealous... don't pretend anymore... i don't like pretender... even wanna comment in my blog also put anonymous... haha... why don't put your name? from the way you wrote those comment i know it was you... (sorry to others anonymous, i just said about that guy)

when you saw this post may be you will know i am talking about you... i seriously didn't care... i tried to make friends more and more everyday... and sorry... we are no more friends...

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

my wonder... my ponder part 4

Ok... 我决定用华语写下my wonder... my ponder part 4... haha... 这次是写幸福... 幸福是每个人都追求着的... 每个人都希望自己是幸福快乐的... 试问有谁不想要幸福呢? 可是... 幸福到底是什么呢? 要怎么样才算是幸福的呢?

对我来说... 幸福是因人而异的... 幸福可以是一个名词, 也可以是形容词... 要幸福其实很简单... 最重要是要懂得珍稀和知足... 懂得珍稀的人当幸福敲门时... 都能好好的把握... 抓住幸福不让它跑掉... 知足的人是最幸福的... 因为知足的人懂得如何珍稀眼前所拥有的一切... 所谓知足常乐... 懂得知足的人不会过分的要求... 然而珍稀现有的一切... 有的人为了争取在事业上更高更好的职位... 却忘了身边重要的人... 假使让他得到他想要的职位和事业是... 他会幸福吗?

幸福... 让人觉得甜蜜... 幸福让人觉得快乐... 幸福让人觉得活得有意义... 哈哈... 我的幸福很简单而已...我想要的幸福就是家庭的幸福... 还有爱情上的幸福... 拥有一个完整的家庭是最幸福的... 一个属于自己的家庭... 无论贫穷或富有... 能拥有属于自己的一个完整的家庭是最幸福的... 我没那个福分去享受完整家庭的幸福... 但目前为此我还是认为自己是幸福的... 哈哈... 人要知足... XP

爱情的幸福对我而言是更容易的... 幸福就是在你需要人陪的时候... 需要人支持你的时候... 会有一个人站在你背后默默的支持, 陪着你... 和你分享所有的喜怒哀乐... 只要是对的... 她都会支持你... 失落的时候... 她会站在身旁的支持和安慰你.. 陪着你渡过艰难的时刻... 不过对于幸福的看法却是因人而异的... 就像对我的一个朋友而言... 她认为幸福就是每天跟自己爱的人一起吃饭,然后慢慢变胖,慢慢变老... 你对幸福又有什么看法呢?

追求幸福... 是每个人都想要的... 然而... 真正的幸福又该去那里找呢?


有人说眺望着摩天轮的人都是在眺望幸福的人...

~~v1nc3nt90
草于 23 january 2008 7:46am

FES visit to UTAR Kampar...

ok... this is suppose to be a belated post on 18 January 2008 because i just got the photos today... so will write it today la... haha... ok last Thursday we received a message said that student fromFES (Faculty of Engineering and Science) from UTAR Setapak, Kuala Lumpur was going to visit us on the next day... they are mostly SRC (Student Representative Committee), Club and Society President, Class Representative and students... omg... really last minute news lo... haha...

however, we managed to having a good time on Friday... haha... Ok... on Friday morning, they arrive at 10 something to DSA (Department of Student Affair) and we gather there to welcome them... we have a campus visit... which i myself havent been to block E (although i am Kampar UTAR student for more than half a year already... haha...) first time been there with them... nothing special there except laboratory and lecture room... and even worst... some of the lab was empty de... haha... because we are still new...

then after the campus tour we have our lunch break and after that we was shown a video clip about how their life in Setapak campus... actually i went there once when UTAR Open day... their facilities are much much better and more than our campus... haiz... until now we only have 1 cafeteria inside the campus... imagine... 1 cafeteria for 1500+ student... poor poor kampar campus... haha... after that we have the ice breaking and interaction... we having games such as blow wind blow... quite childish but fun also la... haha...and we taking photos together... haha... finally they leave at 3 something and i was quite tired also because it is during study leave for me... =S but a quite nice experience and i can make more friends... haha...



~~v1nc3nt90

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

me... in the late night again...

haha... i am staying up late night again... but this time different... haha... i wasn't insomnia again... but i just woke up at 2 am something... haha... this is my life when the exam period... sleeping at night... den wake up at noon...

ok... woke up at 2, took a refresh bath... omg... it was so freezing... haha... den start my final revision for management... haha... good last minute study... study till 4 something... feel hungry and went to ghany for my supper... or breakfast?? the watching Liverpool vs Aston Villa... well i wasn't Liverpool's fan... but seems no other match so i watch lo... ok... now the match is still on going... and Aston Villa has the lead now...

Amazing... Aston Villa hit Liverpool back two goals in 4 minutes time... can you believe that??? At first Liverpool lead the match with Benayoun scored at 18 minutes on the first half... During second half, Aston Villa's Harewood was substituted at 65 minutes and he scored in 68 minutes... 3 minutes later... a mistake by Liverpool's Aurelio with an own goal that let Aston Villa have the lead with 2-1... wondering Aston Villa can smile until the last or not... haha... and i can't waste any minute already... must study... so cannot watch already... but will take a look at the result when the match over.. haha... ok la... that is all for tonight... must keep study...

study... study and study... last minute study... sleepy~~

~~v1nc3nt90 22 January 2008 5:47 am

Monday, January 21, 2008

no more peace...

no more peace again in us...
i was really really frustrated...
for everything i did, was all mistake for you...
i wonder why i am so so so silly that could think of being peace all along this time...
shall never never think of this anymore...
never!!!
i never want to become like this...
but it is all because of YOU!!!
what you think and what you did...
i seriously didn't care anymore...
what i wrote on this is just my feeling and thinking...
never never think of provoking and accusing someone!!!!
especially the person is YOU!!!
If you think I am posting the photos for those purpose...
U ARE WRONG!!!
I just wanna peace and friendship...
it is YOU who ruined everything...
Sorry and don't blame me to be mean...
I have enough for things like this...

~~v1nc3nt90

Sunday, January 20, 2008

nice song...

well... finally i finished my revision for management.now take a short break and i decided to wrote this post... haha... the talkative me...

planned to study marketing later... alto it was 3 something already, but i still not tired yet. because i slept until 2pm today... haha... currently i am listening to a song. and i repeated it very very much times already. it was 有机 (you ji means organic love in english) by Malaysia idol winner, Danial Lee 李吉汉... i can't find the link for this song, otherwise i wanna share with you all...

ok well... this song is talking about love... haha... it chorus sing about where can we find organic love, so that if we have love again then we wouldn't get hurt from love.

haha... well... of course... love will not be perfect... it hurts also even you very very love the person... but that is it... that is the amazing of love... it can make you extremely happy... and it also can make you extremely sad... especially when love is over... haha... shouldn't talk so much rubbish here... time is running out... i should have continue study... haha... will try to find the song and link it to my blog. it was a nice and meaningful song... i recommend it if you understand chinese...

lyric of the chorus...
那里去寻找有机的爱, na li qu xun zhao you ji de ai,
多爱一回也不受伤害, duo ai yi hui ye bu shou shang hai,
就让心底的话留住最初的样子, jiu rang xin di de hua liu zhu zui chu de yang zi
自然的盛开. zhi ran de sheng kai.

那里去寻找有机的爱, na li qu xun zhao you ji de ai,
多爱一回有益而无害, duo ai yi hui you yi er wu hai,
仿佛心底纯真如昔那个小孩, fang fu xin di chun zhen ru xi na ge xiao hai,
活过来, 我期待... huo guo lai, wo qi dai...



ps. ignored the mv... it wasn't the real mv for this song... i can't find other already...

~v1nc3nt90

Saturday, January 19, 2008

insomnia... me again...

having insomnia again tonight... sigh... every time when i was thinking of something den i will keep on thinking... haiz... till now 5am sumthing d i still cant sleep... ish...

something keep came into my mind... i was thinking about school life... life in University and secondary school... my friends... my exam... and all stuff these stuff... cant sleep just now so wake up a while to study because the exam is just next week and today is saturday already... but when i saw all those notes... i became sleepy again... then when i lie on my bed... i cant sleep... =.=" den wake up again... on my laptop... browsing pictures in my laptop... den decided to write this post...

actually there are a lot lot of things in my mind currently... and most of them were about study for exam... and love... (oh man...) haha.... honestly i keep telling myself i have completely let go of anything... and i tried to convince myself i can do that... but my friends has just said if i have already let go completely den i wouldn't have wrote so many rubbish at here... haha... well... it was true... sigh...

it was almost two month already but seems like it is like happened to me yesterday only... everything, every moment and every scene i still remember very very clearly... can anybody tell me why??? =.= i dun wanna keep like this but it seems i will keep on thinking thinking and thinking about all these stuff...

but at least... i didn't do anything for her already... and i wouldn't do anything also... juz my mind will keep on thinking about these stuff... but it was just thinking... haha... talk is far far easier than do... i can tell you all what i want but i cannot lie to myself... i can tell you i have completely let go of everything but i can't lie to myself...

last... i am crapping here like an old man only... haha... but at least i can tell out what i feel... although it was super crapping and meaningless at all... it is what in my mind... at least i can tell out what i think and feel... may be nobody will read on my post and all... at least i am telling out my mind... it is much much better than keeping it inside my mind... and to all those person who giving me feedback or comment on previous post... i really appreciate it and thankful... at least you all are communicating with me although i dunno you all... (may be i was lack of communication... haha... i was very very talkative person in my class)

~insomnia, insomnia and insomnia... my kai-sister (jasmine) ask me to count little sheep... my god... it doesn't work at all... =.="


~v1nc3nt90 19 January 2008 5:50a.m (still cannot sleep...=.=")

Friday, January 18, 2008

my wonder... my ponder... part 3

ok... i am back to here... for part 3... i would like to talk about love... there are quite a lot of love... love among family... love among friends... and love between couple.. and i would like to talk about love among couple for this time... hehe...

there was once i believed that love could last forever... haha... but seems like the fact told me it was not... but i believed... for most of the people... may be it is... but for me... it still haven't happen yet...

sometimes i was wondering... why there are couple can last for the whole life of them... but some of them couldn't last even one day... in my humble opinion... i think may be it is all about patience, tolerance and sacrifice... loving somebody means u are willing to accept the whole him/her... either good or bad... for me... a true love come from the bottom of our heart... it was sincere and true... and true love never fail...

for me... i only experienced puppy love... yeah... it was during my high school and recently... puppy love was so fragile... that is the different between puppy love and true love... puppy love was so fragile... as time go on.. you will find out some of weakness of your partner... nobody is perfect in this world... once you find out that and you think you was unable to accept it... and there is when it becoming a break up... for most of the people... they will think of break up if they find out they can't accept the weakness of their partner... hmm... for me... i wasn't think so... love is blind... if you really love somebody... it was not a problem to accept everything about them...

there was a saying said that "love me, love my dog"... it said that if you really love somebody... you have to accept everything about him/her... haha... seriously... i dun think it work anymore... for the past... may be it was true... but for now... it is very hard to say... divorce from a marriage was so common nowadays... so that with all those unmarried couple... suddenly a song came into my mind now... haha... "when i fall in love" by Celine Dion... it said "in a restless world like this is... Love is ended before it begun... And too many moonlight kisses... seem to cool in the warmth of the sun..." actually i was quite agree with this... no matter how much you love somebody... no matter how much kisses or even more than that... it is just simply nothing when the love was over...

hmm... i think that is all for what i think about love... but i really hopes somedays i will found my true love... not more puppy love... i was tiring with all those puppy love... it was so hurt and sad when you have to say good bye with someone you loved... i experienced that three times already... and recently... i was not so peace when breaking with somebody last month... because of somethings... it seems like she hate me more than anything... haha... really tired of all these things... dun wanna wish these kind of things happen again... it wasn't right anywhere... i wish to have more friends than more enemies... but somehow it was her decision... i can't and wouldn't forcing anything... but in future i think i will regret gua... because of hurting somebody and let that person hate me... i never wish thing going into like this... if there are anything that i able to do... i am willing to do so... i am sorry... no matter what... she was still my ex...

ok... lastly... what is love actually??? i also dunno... it was just my humble opinion... hopes any reader will give some comment for me... that make my wonder... and my ponder part 3..

heart connected to heart... wish i have it oso...

*wishing peace and friendship between me and her*

~~v1nc3nt90

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

15 january 2008

ok... well... im here again... feeling so so so tired after studying for a few hours d... @.@ so come here to talk rubbish again... haha...

about 1 more week to the exam... gosh... not even 1 week... bt 5 days more only... haha... die la... still not well prepare yet... gt to burn midnite oil d nw...

beside that... i was wondering sumthing... y i will let sumbody believe love is artificial... actually i myself dun un bout that... reli... i din fake anything why was it artificial... hoping an answer from her bt seems like i have totally being blocked by connected with her... haha... may be this is da best way for us oso... juz wandering... why leh... i reli dun un lo...

if a boy quarrel with a gal... i think everybody will support da gal gua... i should have predict it before it happen... bt never mind la... i dun quite care oso... somehow i was changed... in a quite negative way... dunno la... bt as long as it is still me... den nth la... still ok de... letting a people hate u wasnt tat feel tat gud oso... haha... bt tat is her choice i cant say anything oso... what a bad memory to her... haha... i dun wish things happen like tis bt since it happen we must try to accept it... haha... learned to accept sumthing that has became a fact...

till now... i am still learning... learning a lot lot of things... learning how to accept sumthing u doesnt wish to happen... learning how to be patient... learning how to be accept other people's advice... before this i very stubborn de... i keep think on what i did was the best... haha... finally fact has proved that i am wrong... den i started to learn how to accept other people suggestion and all...

i am juz a teenager... a teenager who cant enter pub or casino oso... coz i havent 18 years old oso... haha... (alto i entered pub for several times d bt it is illegal de la...) and so... i am still learning... in chinese that was an idiom said:"不经一事,不长一智" it means if u never experienced sumthing... u will never gt tat knowledge... ok well.. actually this kind of things wasnt happen on me for the first time... bt it was juz too much of different this time... last time i can let go of everything very easy... bt this time different... bt seriously... this time i have lot lot of memory that the previous times dun have... haha...

after so much things happen... i dun think it still have a way to save things... may be friendship oso cannot be... haha... a lot lot of things can only be memory... i have learned to treasure all those memory but not all those hates and blame... well... we should be positive ma rite??? seriously i care bout how other people think of me... i reli reli care... i always hoping a positive image and friendship from other people... i care bout all these... but seems nw... i have neither... may be this is wat we called:"padam muka" in malay... or "u dai sei!!! (means u deserve it)" in cantonese...

becoz of breaking i seems to have lose my girl friend and my friends around me... yeap... something happen among me and my classmate... now no matter how hard i tried to save it oso no use d... sigh... life life life... nth or no one i can blame beside myself... should have predict it... haha... i dunno... i juz hope everything can be fine after all... haha... somehow i am still in a small gang... hmm... reli reli appreciate... they din leave me when i was totally down... alto i wasnt not so close with them oso... bt i believe that is true friendship... be patient to ur friends and support them... haha...

wah... quite long da rubbish i wrote this time... haha... should continue study o... time is running out d... haha... last thing... i juz hope all the misunderstanding can be solve... 1 friend more is equal to 1 enemy less... i reli dun wish things like now happen... but somehow... i wun force it... i wun do anything... depends on fate gua... fate and destiny will lead us... no point u force it rite???

actually this can be my wonder... my ponder part 3 wor... haha... but never mind la... keep it next time... coz at first i oso dun wanna write so long de... hoping sumbody will read it and give some comment to me... i will be appreciate it... coz im learning... =)

p.s. 15 january is my kai-sis birthday... haha... another birthday greet to u... jasmine... remember you are not Miss Lonelymin... haha...


~~v1nc3nt90

Monday, January 14, 2008

numb

i reli tired about all these things d... reli reli tired... i nid to study... da exam is juz around da corner... reli dun have time to argue bout all these things... if u still think it was my fault... u like la... i dun care d... after all... juz be urself... rmb... be urself... only tat is da best...

give a song to u la... it reflects myself... Linkin Park - Numb...
p.s. Chester rocks!!!

hate me???

ok... there are a few things tat i wan to say... first of all... stop accusing me...

second... i din fake anything... for everything i did... i was reli serious and honestly... i din make anything artificial... but it was u break all those promises and words... i am sorry to say tat but it was true...

third... for a time... i did blame u... but after that i try to make friend and peace... bt it was u who dun wan... i try to concern u... u said no nid... i try to care bout u... u said im annoying... i sms u when i was bored... bt sumtime u dun bother to reply oso... and no matter for what i said... u will said i accusing u... ok la... then i have enuf d... that is y i will be like tis nw... it is not i dun wanna be friends and all... but it was ur problem... u said be4 we r not fren rite??? it was wat u said... i reli disappointed wit u... u think i hate u??? sorry.. i wasnt... from last time till now... i never think so... alto u never treat me as ur friend after that thing happen... u can write whatever u wan... bt... i think u urself noe the truth best...

forth... im juz telling out wat happen... dun say i accusing u again... i didn't... and i never fake anything... i reli giving all out and that is y im so so so so sad and disappointed when u went away juz like tat... i never pretend anything to u... i never fake anything to u... think bout it... u said i was da biggest mistake for u... haha... i have nth to say lo... may be i am... but i never fake anything... seriously... and... i din do anything sorry to u... becoz of u... i changed a lot... haha... changed in a negative way... i wasnt like tis be4... for wat u did... u changed me... bt i din hate u... it wasnt gud to hate a person... so i wun...

p.s. my english wasnt tat gud... so i apologize for any mistake...

~~v1nc3nt90

Sunday, January 13, 2008

hate tis feeling...

sigh... still feeling quite lost... like i have miss up sumthing in my life... yeap... and for nw... wat i have is loneliness... sigh... nth else... wanna sms chat wit people oso dunno gt who can chat... haha... and i decided to stop using my digi number(016) after 8 january d... so... to all my frens... pls contact me through my maxis la... (017)

ok... today should be finish my marketing revision de... bt reli lazy lo... haha... after dinner... i wandering in kampar without any destination for about an hour... im still in lost... sigh... drive in my car and wandering without any purpose... haha... a way of wasting petrol... went to a lot lot of places... go deep in every taman... when i went into westlake... saw a lot of utarian there... bt most of them i dunno de... haha... may be i should go down and make frens wit them... XP

study... study... and study...

~~v1nc3nt90

Friday, January 11, 2008

past memory...

a whole new day is here... haha... went to university to take exam slip and all... went for lunch at 2 sumthing... den went to kampar ekspress again... haha... went there... chat wit da boss coz nth to do oso... den he asked me wanna take part time job onot when sem 3 coz sem 3 is a short sem with 3 subject only... hmm... a quite nice offer for me oso coz da working time very flexible... and i usually oso nth to do oso... if work there can gt salary and all tim... so for now i still considering wanna take da offer onot coz i long time oso din work d... last time worked as promoter when waiting for da SPM result... haha...

ok... went to fun fair in kampar alone after having dinner... actually... dunno y i will went there oso... i went there without any purpose... juz simply hanging around there... sigh... den it remind me a lot lot of past memory again... sigh... remind first time i went to fun fair with sumbody... played da dunno wat thing until wanna vomit coz juz ate last time... (gosh... reli wanna vomit tat time...) hehe... den i win a little pink bear there... actually it was the first time i win a soft toy from fun fair... haha... lucky tat day gua... den da little pink bear was give to sumone... still rmb on da way go b to kampar tat day... i keep forcing myself for nt to vomit... hehe... coz i still nid to drive from ipoh back to kampar tat day... and juz i remember... tat was a very special day for me coz it is sumkind of anniversary... sigh... bt no more d...

kampar fun fair view

i was playing this thing last time till wanna vomit... hehe

~~v1nc3nt90

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

bored bored...

so damn boring and tiring these few days... dunno y... my life like missing sumthing d... i dunno wat is tat bt it is juz feel like tat... a very very weird feeling that let me feel so... keep listening to songs becoz nth to do... and i found out i like this song... haha... nw i share share with you all... 周杰伦-我不配 I'm not worthy by jay chou... hopr u will like it oso...

Monday, January 7, 2008

tiring day...

last nite i went to seng leong's house again... look like i can stay there d coz i appeared there almost everyday... haha... well... playing games again again and again... i play till 5am sumthing... hehe... watch naruto wit seng leong till 7 sumthing... play game again till 8 sumthing... went back home bath den going for bala's sociology class... haha... geng leh... i din slp at all yesterday...

during bala class... i was reli reli bored and tired coz he is reli a very pro hypnotist... belif me it is true... den skip the class for about 20 minute to take a breath... den decided to go ict and coz im in charge in photo taking for the new student... saw one of my friend was on9 there... haha... skipping class oso... ok... when i reached there... omg... 1st time i saw tat much people in UTAR Kampar... yor... reli quite a lot lot of people who was queue up for the turn to take photo for id card... helping a while there and gone back to class coz the class is going... haiz...

after bala's class 11am still gt management class... zzz... after management class... finally i went to ict again... yor... was reli bz there lo... a lot of people... haha... finally i stay there till almost 6pm den only we stop... hush... wat a busy day... summore i din slp for more dan a day d... haiz... reli tired... and i found out i havent eat my breakfast and lunch... lol... din feel hungry at all... depressing still at my side after so long d... sigh... hope can chase it asap...

ok la... after writing this i think im going to slp d... or may be play game a while le... hehe... my life was empty without games... XP... and die la... the exam is juz at corner bt i still havent start my revision d... will start doing revision tommorow le... today i muz slp till fulllllll... haha...

~~v1nc3nt90

Sunday, January 6, 2008

my wonder... my ponder... part 2

after saw yinyin's blog about the title "ignorance is bliss"... i decided to write the part two of my wonder... my ponder...

ignorance is bliss... for most of the people... it is true... sumtime... you will be better if u dunno the fact of sumthings... becoz for most of the time... facts are reli reli hurt sumbody... bt imagine... if u noe ur friend are hiding sumthing from u... wat would u think? telling da truth to ur friends wasnt nt tat easy... so most of the people will choose to avoid it... so ignorance is bliss... bt people will have to face their problem on their own... at this time... they will need helping hand from their friends...

Friends... a nous that needed by everyone in this world... nobody can live without this word... no matter how powerful u r.. how rich u r... without friends... everything is so empty... imagine nobody will share ur joy with you... nobody will concern about you and all... will u be happy even if you own a lot lot of things except friends?

A friend in need is a friend indeed...
A true friend will never leave you when you need them... A true friend will giving his/her helping hand when you needed... some people might think if we can do something without anybody help... it is independent... in fact... i doesnt agree lo... no matter how independent you are... you will still need ur friends...

Last... if you cannot accept what i said... sorry first... i noe i wasnt intelligent... bt everyone has their right to speak out rite? so simply leave me a comment for what you think... i will be appreciate about it...

p.s. to a person... i will never leave you alone as you requested... may be u can angry about me and say im irritating... but i am still care bout you... i juz dun wanna c you in that way... it was totally not right... no matter how much time you scold me... how much time u chasing me away... hw much time u said:"none of your business" i oso dun mind... i juz noe i cant stand you in this way... i juz wanna you be happy...

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Love...

To a special person for me... Hope you will find your way back as soon as possible... I really cannot stand keep seeing you like this...

Love is patient, Love is kind
It does not envy, It does not boast
It is not proud, It is not rude
It is not self-seeking, It is not self angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil
But rejoice with the truth
It always protect, Always trust
Always hopes, Always preserve
Love never fails
~ no matter what you did, i will never and ever blame you ~


思恋是一种很玄的东西
当你想放弃它的时候
反而会记得的更清楚
有人说长痛不如短痛
可是当你强迫自己去忘记时
还不是在伤害自己
强迫自己,不如做回自己
觉得对的,就别犹豫
只有失去了才懂得珍稀
回头看才发现也已经太迟了

~ 珍稀眼前的每一段时间,别等到失去了才来后悔 ~
但愿人长久

~~v1nc3nt90 5/1/2008 6:25 pm

Friday, January 4, 2008

another normal day...

ok well... im back to here again... haha... supposed to report all this yesterday de... bt too tired d so din... today write all la har... haha...

first of all yesterday was juz like a normal day for me... nth special de... juz like everydaythat i have a normal life... i still apart from my gang... and nw seems like i and totally out from them d... sad bt true... sigh... at least... there are still gt frens such as Seng Leong, Eric (or Erica?), Sooi Yan, Chu Ying wit us... hmm... at least i am getting closer to that gang d... thanx to u all my life wasnt tat bad...

yesterday i gt my bracelet back from her... yeap... after she redo that bracelet for me coz it is too loose... bt i am quite sad lo... she juz left da bracelet and den go away... saying nth... juz leave da bracelet and then go... sigh... wat on the earth nw wor??? i din do anything wrong oso y u juz like dun choi me only... like im juz a stranger to u... i dun un lo... even frens oso cannot be meh? i noe may be u r angry or wat... bt i reli reli tried hard to be frens wit u... sigh... dunno la... may be im nth for u d juz like a stranger... sad... sob sob...

last nite having dinner wit Seng Leong they all again... haha... these few days we keep having dinner together... haha... at least i am no more alone!!! yes... haha... after having dinner... i went to seng leong house to play game lo... (alto exam is juz at the corner bt i still havent start my revision... XP) play play till gila d... haha... play till 3 am sumthing... den went to ghany (again =.=") for supper around 4... fetch chu ying b to westlake at around 5... westlake power supply was hit bt thunder so the whole westlake was out of current... luckily i am nt staying inside westlake... otherwise i sure cant slp in da nite... da whole westlake was so dark and quite... scary... haha... 5 am summore...

went back home den bath... actually wanna write this blog yesterday de... bt toooooo sleepy d so din lo... slpt at around 6 am... den today woke up at 9 sumthing... slpt for 3 hours only (@.@) coz gt class at 10... boring web page design... i gotta put more efforts in web page d la.. or i reli gonna fail tis subject... haha... still in quite lost... bt i belif i have slowly find my path back to the previous me... haha... bt... muz slp earlier arh!!! walao ei... i slpt nt even 5 hours per days... zzz... so slpy nw... later still have miss chai tutorial... after that gonna study web page design... onot reli i will fail... haha... exam is juz around the corner... frens... lets start doing revision lo... and gud luck to all my frens... haha...

~~v1nc3nt90

Thursday, January 3, 2008

time...

ppl say time is da best medicine... as time goes... it can flush away all those unhappy memory and all those things will slowly fade in memory... but for me... it seems like bullshit... sad bt true...

almost one month d lo since tat thing happend... bt i am still in a lost way... having insomnia almost everynite... sigh... shouldnt be like this... no matter how hard i tried... when i closed my eyes... i will remember all those moment... all past memory... i keep telling myself should forget it and all... and a time i tot i did it... bt once i meet her... everything come back into my mind again... sigh...

well... this is quite a big change for me... haha... im getting immature in handle all these things d... actually i am... yes... i changed... and for that... i have lost some of the frens... may be we r still frens... bt it wun be so close like before... sigh... alto i already noe it will happen bt still... i did it... so i can't blame anyone except myself... hmm... i made a wish during new year... bt nw... it seems like useless oso... days remain like tat... i wish a new start for new year and i reli reli tried hard to make a whole new me... i think i did it bt things happen around me didn't... im stil in da same situation as December last year... sigh...

i missing sumbody... a person that once to be very important for me... no... should say she is still so important for me... for her... i belif i was once important to her oso... bt seems like no more la nw... after she told me tat... i was hurt... reli unexpected she can forget everything so easily... bt can't blame her oso geh... coz we shouldn't keep all those things we shouldn't keep... or else it will be suffering like what im nw... saw her blog... noe that she was depressing and unhappy also... wondering wat happen... y she feel like tat and all... i noe the easiest way to noe is ask her... bt i didn't do tat coz i noe i shouldn't... should let go of her... and i believe... she is still angry... or may be hate me gua... sigh... reli dun wanna things happen like tat... bt it did... so juz accept it lo... better for her oso... alto i dunno is this way better for her onot... =S

hmm... nowadays reli gt a lot lot of rubbish wanna share wit someone lo... bt den seems like nobody around me can be my good listener... sigh... i found out my life was quite alone this few days lo... seems like no one is very close wit me d... sigh... after all these finally i understand gal's tears is more more more great dan what a boy did... it can change everybody' s view toward that guy... no matter hw close they was wit the guy before... a gal's tear can destroy all... close frens become normal frens... frens become strangers... some even treat u as enemy tim... sigh...

my blog was gtting dusty lo... only i write and read by myself only... haha... bt nvm le... at least this is a little space for me to tell everything that keep inside my little heart... at least this is a space for me to release all my problem form my mind... onot may be i will explode coz too much stress d... haha...

hmm... dunno should i say this onot... bt seems like she wun read this oso d so i juz write la... no matter what... i will owaz welcome you come back to me... may be you will said u r da one who leave me first... so no nid any chances... bt i tell you... if... if only la... if sumday u regret to do so... im still welcome you... i wun blame u... coz u r my piggy... owaz... and forever...

~~v1nc3nt90
3 january 2008 2:33 am

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

1 january 2008...

ok... quite a big different with da new year i expected... i tot i will be celebrating this new year alone... bt i was wrong...

ok... at 12 sumthing... i went to kwikstop... wanna buy sum beer to pass my new year... who noe i meet soo ting, pai woon and chui wern at there wor... then they ask me to go 21st (a little pub in kampar) with them... since i have nth to do... so i mai follow lo... den when im there, they ask c wherether i wanna go ipoh onot... haha... tat time oso 1 sumthing d lo... bt since i have nth to do so i mai ok lo then juz go wit them...

then they asked me to go westlake to call a fren.... so we walked from thier hostel to westlake juz to find her... bt at last... she dun wan to go oso... sigh... well then went to ipoh in 2:30 am...

reached ipho at 3.. went to eat at tesco there... and chatting there lo... almost 5 am d all oso tired so all ppl heading back to kampar lo... 5 sumthing i reached kampar and going 7-11 to buy beers... for myself... at this time i nid sum beers released my stress and forget my problem... den finally fetch they all back to their hostel...

meet tat fren at maha maju... she is with two other housemate... well... i went down da car and asked to see wherether they nid me to fetch them b onot... bt tat fren langsung dun bother and dun wanna talk to me... at last i turn back and go away...

nw im back to my own hostel... drunk two bottle of 640 ml Carlsberg... hoping i will forget all the things... all the unhappy things that happend... nw i am reli a little bit dizzy d after drunk 2 bottle of tat... bt deep in my heart... i noe i still missing her... sigh... hoping i can reli reli forget her...

~~v1nc3nt90, 1 january 2008, 6:02 am