Saturday, January 19, 2008

insomnia... me again...

having insomnia again tonight... sigh... every time when i was thinking of something den i will keep on thinking... haiz... till now 5am sumthing d i still cant sleep... ish...

something keep came into my mind... i was thinking about school life... life in University and secondary school... my friends... my exam... and all stuff these stuff... cant sleep just now so wake up a while to study because the exam is just next week and today is saturday already... but when i saw all those notes... i became sleepy again... then when i lie on my bed... i cant sleep... =.=" den wake up again... on my laptop... browsing pictures in my laptop... den decided to write this post...

actually there are a lot lot of things in my mind currently... and most of them were about study for exam... and love... (oh man...) haha.... honestly i keep telling myself i have completely let go of anything... and i tried to convince myself i can do that... but my friends has just said if i have already let go completely den i wouldn't have wrote so many rubbish at here... haha... well... it was true... sigh...

it was almost two month already but seems like it is like happened to me yesterday only... everything, every moment and every scene i still remember very very clearly... can anybody tell me why??? =.= i dun wanna keep like this but it seems i will keep on thinking thinking and thinking about all these stuff...

but at least... i didn't do anything for her already... and i wouldn't do anything also... juz my mind will keep on thinking about these stuff... but it was just thinking... haha... talk is far far easier than do... i can tell you all what i want but i cannot lie to myself... i can tell you i have completely let go of everything but i can't lie to myself...

last... i am crapping here like an old man only... haha... but at least i can tell out what i feel... although it was super crapping and meaningless at all... it is what in my mind... at least i can tell out what i think and feel... may be nobody will read on my post and all... at least i am telling out my mind... it is much much better than keeping it inside my mind... and to all those person who giving me feedback or comment on previous post... i really appreciate it and thankful... at least you all are communicating with me although i dunno you all... (may be i was lack of communication... haha... i was very very talkative person in my class)

~insomnia, insomnia and insomnia... my kai-sister (jasmine) ask me to count little sheep... my god... it doesn't work at all... =.="


~v1nc3nt90 19 January 2008 5:50a.m (still cannot sleep...=.=")

28 comments:

Anonymous said...

well..there is no rule saying you should forget her immedietly..it can take months or even years for as long as you like it..

the point is, don't force yourself to forget if you cannot..these things takes time..it is normal to think of the past memories especially if they are happy ones..and not one is stopping you to think of that..

"memories are nice but they're all they are"

move forward..the past is the past..you can't change the mistakes (or if you have done mitakes in the realtionship) you've done..the best thing you can do is rise from your mistake..

you know they oild saying - "those who never failed will never succeed"

A sense of courage to move forward is all you need..

sincerely,
anonymous

Anonymous said...

well vincent, I agree with anonymous said that don't force yourself to forget her if you can't do it. These kind of things take time.

move forward, forget what the past. The past has already passed, no point you keep think about it. may be you will have another better relationship tomorrow, who know?

if you can't sleep because of these kind of things, try to find something to divert it. try to find something to do to make you busy so you wouldn't have time to think about this kind of things.

you are still a teenager, still in learning. it is good for you to experience these kind of things so you will be more mature and grow up. that is all for the advise from me. hope you will find your way back to your normal life asap.

may the god bless you.

sincerely,
anonymous #2

(another) anonymous said...

OMG. too many 'anonoymous' here.

v1nc3nt90 said...

haha... anymore anonymous? =P

Anonymous said...

Do u think u got de permission to post up de photos...?

v1nc3nt90 said...

er... well, it is my photo then i should have the right to post it...

yinyin said...

FUCK YOU~!!HOW DARE YOU~!!!YOUR DAMN PHOTOS WITH ANOTHER PERSON'S FACE IN IT DAMNIT~!!FUCK YOU

Anonymous said...

it's NOT ONLY your photo...
even if it's your photo with your pet (puppy, kitten), you still have to ask his/her/its permission!

Anonymous said...

i have a suggestion for both...

okay, this matter is already over. totally over! it can be only memories for yourself. (not others).
what i mean 'not others' is: if it is your memory, you better dont 'share' with others in blog. you just keep inside you larh.
moreover, this is a sad memory. i am sure, am sure you dont want yourself to remember it anymore. so, don't blog it out! if you continue to blog out, it will only increase your sadness-es, ISN'T IT? isn't it? ...

v1nc3nt90 said...

ok well... den i shall remove it as u wish...

v1nc3nt90 said...

happy now? yinyin? sorry... but u are the wan who declaring argue... fine... now i wouldn't be patient with you anymore. never. silly me...

Anonymous said...

you said you wished to be just friends even though broke up. if you really wanted to, you should have endure a bit. be a gentleman.

okay now, no one should mention anymore about anything about this... *peace*

agree?

what do you say, mr./ms. anonymous (utarian)?

v1nc3nt90 said...

sorry... as you can see.. there are no more peace... no more friendship... can you see the word "f*ck"? how you expect me to chill?

Anonymous said...

ohh.. when you are in anger/when you are inside a fire pot, i think you will be like that too, wont you?
do you ever heard of this: "you can irritate anyone, but not women." *wink*

please promise us for your friends. not only both of you, your friends are so emotional because of yours' problems.

it's now exam period. dont do anything else/dont irritate anyone anymore. anything, please wait until the exams are over.

"please be considerate for your friends as well" thank you very much.

v1nc3nt90 said...

i know... what she think what she feel i seriously dun care and dun wan to care anymore... i was reli reli frustrated with this... i tot at least we can be frens... but it was a big MISTAKE... see at last what i get?

Anonymous said...

then you should put any hope on this anymore. okay now, everyone stop everything on this matter...

v1nc3nt90 said...

is shouldn't gua... i didn't put hopes on relationship again... i juz wanna friendship... for what i did... it is juz simply for that purpose... i din fake anything or tell any lies...

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Anonymous said...

I do agree that it is over..

But i do not agree about the permission of photos..

anyway, again, we agree to disagree..hopefully, most of us can do that..it will save a lot of bickering and quarreling..

sincerely,
anonymous#1

v1nc3nt90 said...

thanx for u all for comment about me... no matter it is positive or negative for me... i will consider and accept it... and the poll i did show me da answer... it was reli not easy to be frens after break up... for some of the reason... i might just shut this blog up as well.. wat would u all say??? should i?

Anonymous said...

Honestly to tell you the truth, i don't really get it why must you think of shutting this blog..

I mean this blog is your place of sanctuary right?

People write comments to healp you..sometimes it didn't turn out well..

But despite the fact, its YOUR blog right?

So YOU'RE the one calling the shots here..YOU'RE the one making the decisions..

No rule saying you should accept whatever anyone says..

And this includes my opinion..

sincerely,
anonymous#1

v1nc3nt90 said...

thanx for ur support anonymous#1... thank you very much...

Anonymous said...

Your welcome..i'm just giving my opinion and perhaps some help..

but things will clear out..it just takes time..

now the challenge is..whether you can endure time..

sincerely,
anonymous#1

v1nc3nt90 said...

ok... i will remember it... i juz cant imagine things will happened like this... anywhere... da pasthas passed... no point talking bout it again... and to anonymous #1Do you write blogs??

Anonymous said...

Nope I don't..even if i did..my blog will probably not be filled with stories of my life..i don't exactly have the habit of talking about my day..

sincerely,
anonymous

v1nc3nt90 said...

haha... but my blog is story about me ma... that is why it is full of my stories... XP.. but then again... den why u will read my blog if u aren't a blogger? hehe... i apologize for my curiosity... that is me... haha...

Anonymous said...

huh?any rule saying we cannot read blogs if we're not a blogger?haha..anyway..nothing about me saying i don't read people's story..i just talk about mine..

no particular reason..like you, i'm curious..that's all..should i apologise for my curiousity as well?haha..

sincerely,
anonymous#1

v1nc3nt90 said...

haha... looks like we almost the same... anywhere... thank you.. i need to study for the exam so will offline d... nice to meet u...