Tuesday, March 25, 2008

my wonder... my ponder... part 5

well... at first i don't think will write this post... but seems like i having some problem with myself... and i don't know how to solve it... so just wanna share with you all here... here somebody might give some comment to me... need some guidance and advise... haha...

woke up quite early today... because i sleep very early yesterday... hehe... then think of something... because nothing to do... hehe... i woke up at 6 a.m. something... then thinking about the past... then decided to write this post...

sometimes i really wonder... why people will changed so dramatically... haha... including myself... i still wondering why although myself changed a lot... especially after somethings happened... something will give an impact to your mood and all... looks like i am thinking too much again but i am just wondering...

actually yesterday i shouldn't have joined TA6 for Miss Ching's class... but i am really got something to do so i must attend the class earlier... really regret for that...

for some reason... my appearance at there made somebody wasn't so happy... yeap... this is the thing... i know how people look at me... and i wouldn't care about that... but this was the exception... i care... i prefer not to appear in front of her... people changing... because of that... it seems like i am her enemy now... or even more than that...

i wonder why people will changed so dramatically... only in half a year... things and people changed so dramatically... and yeap... i know i changed too... i was really mean at beginning of that time... haha... because i really down and disappointed... may be HATE was the best word to describe how i feel... but after being for sometimes... i seems like doesn't care about that anymore... hmm... yeap... not at all... but at least better than before... at least i feel better...

sometimes letting go of something past was good... because what passed has past... will never come back again... the important thing is we must face the front... what left was just memory to be treasured and cherished... doesn't care it was good or bad... because even the worst part was memory also... i didn't expect anything... i just doesn't things happened like this... it was totally wrong... hate is the most horrible in all kind of feeling...

lastly... for the person who hate me... haha... i have some words for you... may be you will never see these words... but never mind la... i just wanna said it out... feel damn bad keeping inside of me... no matter what... you gave me some precious memory to treasure... and honestly.. i didn't blame you for anything now... haha... sometimes i was thinking... i have hundreds of reasons to hate you if i want... but i prefer not to... especially... you was once a special person for me... now i understand hate is really a really horrible feeling... i am glad i found myself back... from the deep hole of hate... although it took quite a long time... haha... and i am thankful for my friends' help... they gave very very much advise and support to me... i have found myself back... now... have you? seriously... no offence... because... for some of the reason i still care and miss you... haiz... terrible me... zzz

~~v1nc3nt90

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

can u juz shut d f*ck up..
ass hole..

v1nc3nt90 said...

thanks for your advise... but i didn't play with ass hole... may be you like it but not me... please don't put shit in here... if you don't like it... just go away... this space belongs to me... so... fuck off!

Anonymous said...

i agree with vincent..this is his space and he got his right to speak out what he want as long as he didn't break any rules and i don't see any problem with this post..

v1nc3nt90 said...

thank second anonymous... to the first anonymous... shut up and fuck off la... don't bark here... if wanna scold me so much then reveal yourself la... i accept negative comments but not insulting comments... so kiss you ass fuck off!!! don't spoil my mood here...

Anonymous said...

chill vincent..no point arguing with him/her here..just ignore it..

second anonymous

beng aka bengchun said...

lolz....wat's so dif abt it??juz delete the darn comment la... XD
easy job....
"what is yours will remain as yours,what is not,no matter hw much u try,u will nt get it..."
undastand vincent???let go of the past...bt dun 4gt them...they make u stronger...cherish those bittersweet moments...i might nt undastand much abt breaking up,bt i undastand the feeling...bcoz i m on the edge of breaking up b4....
ppl sure do change at breakneck speed...i myself changed...wat is important is whether u changed into a bter man,or not...cheer up dude...

v1nc3nt90 said...

no la... no need delete de la... until now he/she still don't dare to shown up... why i need to delete that comment wor? haha... btw... i looks very down meh dude? lolz... i am ok wor... just sometimes still miss those times... you know de la.. right? haha... that is why sometimes i will wrote such post... anwhere thanx beng... haha... take care buddy...

yinyin said...
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yinyin said...

isn't it funny how u can ask others to not insult but u can insult at the same time??

v1nc3nt90 said...
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v1nc3nt90 said...

ok... if you wanna know i will just tell you... first... he/she shoot at me first... so... do you think i will keep quite?? second... it depends on who is he/she... if it was my friends... i will apologized for that if needed... that is why i damn wanna know who is that...